I wished that I sucked to talk to. I wish that people hated opening up to me. I relish it because it’s there. 

But really, I just end up carrying water for other people, and without an outlet for myself. 

Where do I end up? 

I end up in front of a fucking grave in the middle of the boondocks. That’s where I end up. Staring at an expensive piece of stonework in Albion, NY, as though it’s going to answer me. 

This is why I disappeared from the face of the Earth when I was 18-24. I wasn’t really there for anyone. But for 3 years now I’ve been an open and inviting ear. It feels like my true nature, but there’s not enough balance to the equation. 

The person who walks on crutches is without someone to lean on. 

My desire to sympathize with those who I feel deserve it has left me starving.

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If you can’t help it then just leave it alone
Leave me alone
Yeah, just forget it
It’s really easy
I’ll just forget it too

(Source: Spotify)

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I’ve got this stupid video of me rambling on about sex, but I think it’s just me trying to vent something that’s been stewing for way too long, so I think I’m just gonna forget about it. 

I’m trying to (drunkenly) remember what I promised myself a little while back.

"If it doesn’t help anyone, then why bother?"

I had a strange day today. Full of confusing flashbacks and complicated thinking. There was one too many things in my system, so I ranted towards my laptop to try and void one of them. That’s it (I think). 

I suppose I’ll give a final verdict when I’m sober tomorrow, but I already know that I’m going to write it off as nonsense, despite the fact that I’m noting some solid points here.

Not enough people to talk to. Not enough places to put things. Too much wreckage to sort through. Just let this one go. 

I need to do this more often. I need to critique myself rather than just purge. I wasn’t a musician. I was a producer. I was the filter. I was once the voice of reason for those who wanted to purge everything onto tape and/or Pro Tools. 

Find a more personal outlet for the personal bullshit. It’ll come along one of these days. The real stuff — the things that carry true weight and impact — you’ll know that you need to write about it.

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You missed out.

::points at you::

You should have been in my presence tonight.

Because I swear I would have made much more sense if you were here and listening to the clusterfuck that’s trying to escape my brain right now. 

I mean, if it were coming from a more intelligent person… it’d be gold. Pure gold. 

Yeah so I got drunk and then I made a video.

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It was easier to process when I came here every day. Nowadays it’s every 6 months, and it’s like coming back to an old battle field. 10 different patients in the waiting room for radiation, and all 10 of them have 10 different expressions and are handling their disease in 10 different ways. Half of the people in this room with me right now could easily be dead within 6 months, and without any quality of life in as little as 1 month for all I know.

The shit hits the fan, bullets start flying, some of them hit you, and you learn what you’re made of. Thing is, it’s very private, personal, and quiet for most people. You can maybe see a vague difference in them, but you don’t see the damage that spurred those very changes.

But you see it in here. With the right kind of eyes, you can see a fist of triumph sitting next to a puddle of despair. You can’t hide who you are when you’re standing on the front lines.

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(Source: metalheadtay)

And just a look could be the start

(Source: Spotify)

Tagged with #music #spotify

babeonwheelzzz, you know, the one where I took a firm stance on behalf of your vag, and lady parts all across the world.

babeonwheelzzz, you know, the one where I took a firm stance on behalf of your vag, and lady parts all across the world.

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Last night’s rant made me hungry.

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justrollinon asked:

apologies for such a personal question and you don't have to answer if you aren't comfortable but..your boy doesn't enjoy giving oral ? again apologies but I can't fathom nor understand that concept - like c'mon dude, return the favor.. you won't be disappointed, it's brilliant! :)

babeonwheelzzz:

becomingbionic:

babeonwheelzzz:

Not too personal lol and nah for some reason he just really doesn’t like doing it. His jaw doesn’t agree with it either. I respect his limits as much as they may suck for me lol

I hate to stick my nose into this (no pun intended), but I call bullshit. He’s being a pussy (minor pun intended). 

In the words of a very very very wise man:

"Whenever l meet a girl that doesn’t give head… l look at them like a damn Betamax, ”They still make you?”

That was in 1999. The same standard should be applied to men who don’t eat pussy today. 

It’s not 1950. It shocks me when I hear that a poor girl can’t get her man to go down on her first. I’ve done it in the car. I’ve done it in the shower. I’ve done it right when she walked in the door and hasn’t had the chance to even put her purse down. I’ve done it first thing in the morning. I’ve done it in fun positions. 

I’ve had a girl straddle my face for 45 minutes. We had to stop because her legs couldn’t take it anymore. Did my jaw feel like shit afterwards? Sure, it felt terrible; like someone punched me with a left hook. But nothing was going to stop that intention that I had. If sex doesn’t hurt you at least a little, then you’re missing something. It’s SO hot when someone is committed to pleasing you. That’s what’s supposed to drive oral sex. 

And in no way am I trying to be gender specific with any of this. EVERYONE should tell EVERYBODY they know that DOESN’T give oral that they’re a fucking dork. We should all team up and have a sex strike against non-oral people. It should be goddamn check-box on OK Cupid that you must answer in order to sign up for an account. Gay, straight, man, woman, or anything in between…. they all deserve to be told how bad they suck (gratuitous pun intended). 

$0.02

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This has officially made my night. I never wanna be “that asshole” who makes a huge deal out of it but we did fight over it once bc it’s literally gotten to a point where we bargain. I give and then I receive and when it’s time for him to reciprocate I always get “I’m tired now” or “I don’t feel well” and even “next time I promise”…. I feel terrible when we fight over it but Jesus dude needs to man up a little. It hurts my fucking jaw like crazy giving him oral but there’s so much more satisfaction knowing I was doing something for him that drove him wild and for me that was so fucking satisfying and motivating for me. Wish he had the same mentality!

Go on strike. Hold out on him until he’s willing to deliver (properly) first.

It’s not all that different from the way we train dogs. Suddenly the dog is excited that he has to shit outside because it means he gets to go for a walk.

justrollinon asked:

apologies for such a personal question and you don't have to answer if you aren't comfortable but..your boy doesn't enjoy giving oral ? again apologies but I can't fathom nor understand that concept - like c'mon dude, return the favor.. you won't be disappointed, it's brilliant! :)

babeonwheelzzz:

Not too personal lol and nah for some reason he just really doesn’t like doing it. His jaw doesn’t agree with it either. I respect his limits as much as they may suck for me lol

I hate to stick my nose into this (no pun intended), but I call bullshit. He’s being a pussy (minor pun intended). 

In the words of a very very very wise man:

"Whenever l meet a girl that doesn’t give head… l look at them like a damn Betamax, ”They still make you?”

That was in 1999. The same standard should be applied to men who don’t eat pussy today. 

It’s not 1950. It shocks me when I hear that a poor girl can’t get her man to go down on her first. I’ve done it in the car. I’ve done it in the shower. I’ve done it right when she walked in the door and hasn’t had the chance to even put her purse down. I’ve done it first thing in the morning. I’ve done it in fun positions. 

I’ve had a girl straddle my face for 45 minutes. We had to stop because her legs couldn’t take it anymore. Did my jaw feel like shit afterwards? Sure, it felt terrible; like someone punched me with a left hook. But nothing was going to stop that intention that I had. If sex doesn’t hurt you at least a little, then you’re missing something. It’s SO hot when someone is committed to pleasing you. That’s what’s supposed to drive oral sex. 

And in no way am I trying to be gender specific with any of this. EVERYONE should tell EVERYBODY they know that DOESN’T give oral that they’re a fucking dork. We should all team up and have a sex strike against non-oral people. It should be goddamn check-box on OK Cupid that you must answer in order to sign up for an account. Gay, straight, man, woman, or anything in between…. they all deserve to be told how bad they suck (gratuitous pun intended). 

$0.02

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Tagged with #oral sex #chris rock

mccombz:

stuckinremission:

Have a Happy Easter everyone! 

I WAS WAITING FOR IT

mccombz:

stuckinremission:

Have a Happy Easter everyone! 

I WAS WAITING FOR IT

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fvckingdemise:

Glassjaw by TOMMY AU PHOTO on Flickr.

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